July 2010
18 posts
hasn’t stopped since this morning. i still don’t know what to do about this. you want me to stop, but only if i want to. but i don’t see the harm in continuing the use, so i don’t want to stop. so i tell you i will stop because you see the harm in it and i’m heeding your warning, and then you tell me “i don’t want you to stop unless it’s for yourself.” you kept telling me i was making excuses to keep doing it when really i wasn’t. all i wanted was to just come to an agreement and get over it so that neither of us would have to worry anymore. because the reality is, it’s not THAT big of a deal to me. if i have to stop, then i have to stop. but you wouldn’t let me. which confuses the hell out of me, because now i don’t know what to do. There’s a reason I do what I do, and no one knows why.
i just want to talk to you about this for once knowing that you’re listening to what i’m saying. I NEED to talk to someone about this. there is a reason for what i do this, and it’s time that someone knows why, and i NEED (not want) you, Casey, to be the one to know.
but i don’t feel like you want to help me with this.
nobody does.
June 2010
36 posts
Just fucking call me? You KNOW I need you right now. Why would you be doing this to me? All I need to make things better is your voice in my ears. And it’s not even that! You don’t have to say anything. Just knowing you’re on the other end of the line makes me feel like you’re actually close to me and that makes me feel better. Please babygirl, I need you to just call me already!
(via monicathenobody)
was some pussy shit!
(via toomuchvodka)
I question the probability of me actually being happy, and that is when things go well.
Then reality hits, and I spiral back to this shithole I always seem to get stuck in.
welcome to the life of a depressed, anxious teenager, my friend. i can assure you, it only gets worse.
we’re all up on that happy kids club right now, I swear haha. who gets greens?
I do! i packed that shit!
*sprinkles yay* COCO PUFFS! deuces nigga! <3
awww shiiiiitttttttt niggaaaaa!!~*~**~ when are you comin’ back to SD fool?
I question the probability of me actually being happy, and that is when things go well.
Then reality hits, and I spiral back to this shithole I always seem to get stuck in.
welcome to the life of a depressed, anxious teenager, my friend. i can assure you, it only gets worse.
we’re all up on that happy kids club right now, I swear haha. who gets greens?
I do! i packed that shit!
I question the probability of me actually being happy, and that is when things go well.
Then reality hits, and I spiral back to this shithole I always seem to get stuck in.
welcome to the life of a depressed, anxious teenager, my friend. i can assure you, it only gets worse.
