About all this is not knowing what’s going to happen next. I want to just forget all this happened and continue living life the way I was, but it’s hard for me to trust that everything will be okay. This one was bad, but just know time will heal this wound. As angry as you may be, (you shouldn’t be) I know you’ll read this. I’m doing this for you, and if you are angry at me you need to stop and take a look at why we’re in this situation. I’m doing this for you. You’ll see. I fear I’m going to lose you through this, but rationally thinking, I know I won’t. But for your sake and mine, please don’t do anything stupid because I will come back to you. You just need time. We just need time.
This hasnt happened in a while but it has happened before. You’ve pushed me away again, when you need me the most. I don’t know if I want to keep doing this. Especially with how my life is going right now. I need to start thinking about myself because I have been negligent.
Is going to fucking blow. It’s already off to a terrible start. Fuck everything.